bowling with friends

i went bowling today.
cosmic bowling.
my friends ordered pizza.
i had planned for this.. i knew it was gonna happen; us as americans basically dont go out without eating..
its quite nasty actually...the way we cant socialize without getting nasty pizza.
but i planned.
i decided i would not eat anything substantial for the 2 days prior to this cosmic bowling outing.
and i did it.
i had less than 100 calories in the last 2 days.
i had a small glass of soda and 2 slices of pizza.
everyone else had more than twice that cause there were 4 of us and we ordered 2 pizzas.
after i ate the pizza and it digested alittle the cheese on the pizza started to really bother me.
i started having violent hiccups.
i feel like maybe i should have just had some crust or something. maybe I'm sensitive to dairy because i honestly havnt had a decent amount of any dairy product in so long..

maybe i should continue to stay away from it because honestly i dont crave it... ive lost all cravings for any dairy or meat really. i might occasionally have some fish or a SMALL amount of steak... but rarely. like maybe just special occasions.

anyway i figured id write just alittle for an update.

im working out 3 times a week starting monday for 45 minutes a session. just a run maybe alittle weights and then a cool down speed walk back to my barracks.
and i am not taking the elevator ANYMORE.
EVER.

and next week when i go home on leave i will start using my adapexin-p.
^_^

i hope i can tone up my stomach alittle bit. because im small but it is like.. skinny fat.
and i HATE IT!

so, i found a half finished posts that was saved in my drafts...

Meant to have been posted 7/15/2011

post:
"imcheckinout

Monday i will be leaving Corry station.
I'm going to be going to NAS.
my friends chief and miss d at the liberty center say they are going to miss me.
i said good bye to the MA's and am working on the checkout process..

Jesse and i have a big weekend planned.
its his birthday celebration and also our last weekend on the same base for awhile.
harry potter, beach side hotel, beach, Ashton inn, nice birthday dinner, and world cup friend social at BWW.
it'll be fun.

mom is extremely adamant... she wants me home REALLY badly.
i want to come home. believe me i really do.
but something is holding me back from it.
idk what.
i love her and i really want to see everyone.
maybe part of it... is that i don't want to lose a minute with Jesse. i think maybe that is a big thing. because its true.. Jesse and i don't have a whole lot of time together before I'm gone for a very long time...
and i want that time.
with him
oh god help me... i am so scared.
is it possible for us to be happy with eachother?
is it possible for him to be ok with this distance that is sure to happen?
i wish i knew."

so i thought id share what i was supposed to have shared earlier... lol reading over it... its kindof old news now..

anyways...
on to the present

today i went grocery shopping... it was storming out though so the only store we could make it to was "save-a-lot".... not exactly what im looking for in a food store... but i did what i could. my room mate thinks i eat weird.i hope she doesnt report me or anything... since in the navy i have to weigh 102 at my height.

anyways.. i made a goofy comment.. my room mate picked up some pop-tarts and asked if i wanted some... i looked at them and said maybe... then looked at the nutrition facts... and said "they're too expensive.." i then had to come up with the excise that im trying to save money for my leave... which is true... but that's not what i meant at the time...

i bought some tea, danimals 70 calories yougurts, some low cal meal replacement bars and freezey pops.

i think i may have a small problem shatrting to arise again... but im gonna enjoy my emptiness,

low calorie shopping list

ughh!
here i go again... counting calories... 


maybe ill start working out for real... that wouldn't be so bad... would
take up a good deal of my time but that is at least productive.. especially considering that i have no friends on this base yet.


anyways here are some of my personal favorites AND some fantastic ideas.


Unsweetened Almond Breeze: This stuff is amazing!! It is only 40 calories a cup. 
       Sometimes I put it in cereal, or smoothies


OHANA'S unique bite size won ton: 6 for 80 calories; That means that 9 of them (a perfect lunch) are 120 calories!     wonderful!


Trader Joe's Chocolate Wedges: These one-serving sized chocolate wedges are a gift to those of us who love chocolate, but strive to eat it in moderation. Each wedge is 35 calories.


Fiberful Fruit Bar: 60 calories for this delicious fruit leather type bar. not quite fruit by the foot but still tasty. 


Wasabi Peas: 1/3 cup for 80 calories. They are very difficult to overeat because of their extremely strong wasabi flavor. Not only can you only eat one or two at a time, but they are also *not* the kind of snack where you will accidentally eat the whole bag.


Miso Soup: i found some fantastic packets of instant miso soup! and i love miso soup. like.. ALOT! there are 35 calories per package which i ALSO adore.


La Tortilla Factory high fiber tortillas: You can buy them in one of two sizes, either a 50 calorie version or an 80 calorie version. i like to put Hormel Turkey Pepperoni on it with a baybel laughing cow mini cheese (light of course which is 50 calories) all cut up for a low cal mini pizza splurge when i want to treat myself.


Hormel Turkey Pepperoni: 17 slices is 70 calories.. and i actually cant think of a time ill ever eat 17 slices at one time... maybe 4?!! lol anyway, definitely good if you want to make my mentioned before pizza.


Edamame: ohhhh i love me some edamame! If you eat 10 pods, you are eating approximately 29 calories. and quite good. i flavor mine with pepper instead of salting them like one would get at a restaurant. 


well... im running out of steam for writing right now.. but!!! ill write more later. 


im trying to get over this flu i got..
goofy navy gave me the flu shot and whaddyaknow?? i got the flu. 
i feel so ucky and grody and sick. 


but i will be healthy again soon and i get to go on leave soon. 


while on leave i plan to start taking my appetite suppressants i wrote about earlier. 
im going to try to stay motivated to record how they work for me. 
sometimes i lose the motivation to write on this blog often... and i wish i were better at it.. and the way i see it the only way to get better is to do it damnit...


oh also... i have a small shopping list of things im going to be getting:

1. scale(im so tired of not knowing...)
2. Velcro ankle weights/ body weights 
3. Britta Filter
4. Running shoes
5. Ice cube tray

i keep sitting down and getting ready to post

and it seems like i never know what to say.
ive been in norfolk nearly a month now. i feel so not at home.

jesse is not coming to norfolk. we found out bupers has changed his orders to California.
we are more than alittle upset.

he asked me to consider maybe marrying him.
im alittle nervous.
i really love him. i always have.

im going on leave soon i am so ready for it!
i want a break. this life takes alot out of a person.

i have decided to try an appetite suppressant.
adapexin-p.
i hope it works like it promises to deliver.
mom is receiving my order in the mail of my adapexin and will be doing it with me.
im pretty excited.

i need to weigh myself. i havnt in so long.
i need to go get a few things.
1. laxatives
2. a scale
3. britta filter
4. running shoes
5. weights that wrap around the leg, arms and abs. (for automatic exercise)
6. multivitamins and "hair skin and nails"

thats kindof all ive got for a list. next paycheck i plan on getting all of that.

lol i notice food isnt on my list. ill probably buy 2 weeks worth of soup or something.

ill try and write more often, im having a hard time keeping up with everything.