i keep sitting down and getting ready to post

and it seems like i never know what to say.
ive been in norfolk nearly a month now. i feel so not at home.

jesse is not coming to norfolk. we found out bupers has changed his orders to California.
we are more than alittle upset.

he asked me to consider maybe marrying him.
im alittle nervous.
i really love him. i always have.

im going on leave soon i am so ready for it!
i want a break. this life takes alot out of a person.

i have decided to try an appetite suppressant.
adapexin-p.
i hope it works like it promises to deliver.
mom is receiving my order in the mail of my adapexin and will be doing it with me.
im pretty excited.

i need to weigh myself. i havnt in so long.
i need to go get a few things.
1. laxatives
2. a scale
3. britta filter
4. running shoes
5. weights that wrap around the leg, arms and abs. (for automatic exercise)
6. multivitamins and "hair skin and nails"

thats kindof all ive got for a list. next paycheck i plan on getting all of that.

lol i notice food isnt on my list. ill probably buy 2 weeks worth of soup or something.

ill try and write more often, im having a hard time keeping up with everything.