so, i found a half finished posts that was saved in my drafts...

Meant to have been posted 7/15/2011

post:
"imcheckinout

Monday i will be leaving Corry station.
I'm going to be going to NAS.
my friends chief and miss d at the liberty center say they are going to miss me.
i said good bye to the MA's and am working on the checkout process..

Jesse and i have a big weekend planned.
its his birthday celebration and also our last weekend on the same base for awhile.
harry potter, beach side hotel, beach, Ashton inn, nice birthday dinner, and world cup friend social at BWW.
it'll be fun.

mom is extremely adamant... she wants me home REALLY badly.
i want to come home. believe me i really do.
but something is holding me back from it.
idk what.
i love her and i really want to see everyone.
maybe part of it... is that i don't want to lose a minute with Jesse. i think maybe that is a big thing. because its true.. Jesse and i don't have a whole lot of time together before I'm gone for a very long time...
and i want that time.
with him
oh god help me... i am so scared.
is it possible for us to be happy with eachother?
is it possible for him to be ok with this distance that is sure to happen?
i wish i knew."

so i thought id share what i was supposed to have shared earlier... lol reading over it... its kindof old news now..

anyways...
on to the present

today i went grocery shopping... it was storming out though so the only store we could make it to was "save-a-lot".... not exactly what im looking for in a food store... but i did what i could. my room mate thinks i eat weird.i hope she doesnt report me or anything... since in the navy i have to weigh 102 at my height.

anyways.. i made a goofy comment.. my room mate picked up some pop-tarts and asked if i wanted some... i looked at them and said maybe... then looked at the nutrition facts... and said "they're too expensive.." i then had to come up with the excise that im trying to save money for my leave... which is true... but that's not what i meant at the time...

i bought some tea, danimals 70 calories yougurts, some low cal meal replacement bars and freezey pops.

i think i may have a small problem shatrting to arise again... but im gonna enjoy my emptiness,