justification and other terrible poems releasing my frustration in the early afternoon

i need some sort of justification

in order to give into this sweet temptation

laid before me like a budding carnation

again presenting itself as a false salvation

there is nothing left in this situation 

that makes it worth my adaptation

so i say again farewell, goodbye

im doing my best to leave with no hesitation.

F)rom me to you i relay this message

U)nless its not clear by the time im done

C)ount on me, and youll be sorry

K)aleidoscopical messages are no longer fun.

O)ur lives are no longer intertwined

F)rom top to bottom, left side down

F)inal messages ring finally true.

i was living in a dream that quickly turned sour.

i should have killed myself within the hour

when i knew youd be leaving me for her again

every night you left me for her, again

and i stupidly forgave you

you, handing me roses and kisses

and cooing me into forgetting i was mad

i should have forgotten your name in the bottle

i should have drank away all thoughts of you

and had fun like you were

you were having fun and i was home alone 

mourning the loss of a living love.

i should have made you come home 

to a pool of my fresh blood.